I'm sorry. (having an little attack)

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IS Funny how you having an attacks but you are awake and aware the fact you're screaming, yelling, crying, twitching, Stuttering, slur words, moaning, Paranoid, in fear, shacking, involuntary movement And saying random words . My mind shut down and I can't think or use my mind but talk out load because it helps me think.. 

So you can say I'm thinking out load, And funny how I can type good with my keyboard instead of writing like this UWDGYIKGSKJF.. Is crazy I know.  But again is not my brain. I'm having a subclinical seizure. 

The experience of this attack is unbearable because it's so suffering to endorse. Is so traumatizing, I'm not normal when I have these. Is so..  

IS this really Anxiety attack? Because I'm not stress and shit. I love my friends and if someone mess or pick on me, I FUCK THEM UP!!

Yes I had a stress past but I'm over it..  I don't know.. 

I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT WRONG WITH ME!! .. Idk. That all I can say because this is god damn frustrating to have and I get sad over this. I have attacks day and night. I stop writing about this because is been happening so fucking recently.. I'm tired of it. .I want it to stop.. 

When I have attacks, I take pills, but it mostly put me to sleep for hours which ruins my day. I feel like shit when it happens but that only the side effect. I just feel nothing and sad because these attacks are ruining my life or year...

I'm starting to think is more then "Anxiety" but I'm not a doctor so I can't say..

I'm scared but I'm not fighting this war alone, My family and friends got my back, I love them and I go to them if i have a problem..

But is kind of sad that I'm missing school because of this. BUT HEY! I had my worst attack last night and this morning right now so I don't blame them lOL.. I'm drugged. :(

but anyway, Sorry for any late delay over my TGFW story because this attack is fucking me up. 


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Catori-the-pegasus's avatar
Darling we can wait for the art worry about your health first im not saying you should stop but you know just take a break in a little while since you know everyone needs a break once in a while...you know like i need a break from school sometimes.Im not being rude saying this i hope.